*boredom strikes

Basics
First Name: R
Middle Name: O
Last Name: M
Date of Birth:April 19
Age: 25
Starsign: Aries
Height: 5'7 i think
Weight: 170 i think?
Hometown: Bacoor Cavite really but now he lives in Pasay

About Her/Him
Where is he/she from?: Cavite/Pasay. privince is Zambaoanga
Are you both from the same town?: Nope.
Does he/she have any siblings?: Yes
What are his/her parents like?: best, nicest mom ever. adorable dad
What are his/her favorite things to do in her spare time?: read/write/sleep
Does he/her have a job?: yup
What are his/her career plans?: be successful
What languages does he/she speak?:english/filipino
Does he/she play any instruments? no but he can sing
Does he/se drive?: Yes.
What are his/her hobbies?: Reading
Does he/she have any pets?: none

Appearance
Is he tall or short for his/her age?: Average
What color is his/her hair?: black
What color are his eyes?: Brown
How does he/she style his hair?: normal
Is it long or short?: short
What is his/her build?: broad shoulders. he lost alot of weight and he (was) working out so a bit muscular. a bit.
Does he/she care about the way he looks?: abit.
What is his dress sense like?: normal.hipster? haha.
Is he/she fit?:kinda
Do people think he/she is good-looking?: i dont know
Does he smoke or drink?: yup. just not much smoking now

Favourites
Music: trip-hop, house, rock
Bands: massive attack, sneaker pimps, david guetta, rage against the machine, bloc party
Movie: Garden State
TV Show: those in discovery channel
Celebrity: natalie portman
Sport: running
Food: lutong bahay
Drink: water
Alcohol: various kinds
Animal: ???
Colour: none
Item of clothing: Jackets, graphic shirts, slippers
Person: me! haha
Car: the fancy ones
Website: chive
Book: Breakfast of Champions//Kurt Vonnegut

You and Him/Her
How did you meet?: he and his then-girlfriend joined us while we were drinking (we're all orgmates)
Where did you meet?: GP
How long have you been together?: 1 year aaand 27 days
Who asked who out?:he offered to accompany me to school one day
What attracted you to him/her physically?: smile
What attracted you to him/her personality-wise?: he's smart, spontaneous, different
Are you in love?: yes
What are your favorite things to do together?: talk, hug, hanging out
Do you ever think about marrying him?: yes.
What about having children together?: yes

This or that
Where is he/she more likely to take you? the beach
Holiday: London or Paris?: London
A museum/art gallery or a theme park?: theme park
Date: Dinner and movie or drinking and dancing?: depends

its been 3 years.

i wont cry today. cause i know you wouldnt want me to.


i miss you, still.

i don't want to write a sad entry today. it's a happy day.



HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ONE AND ONLY BULLFROG FOREVER AND EVER, EARL ANDREW AUSTRIA GLORIA (3/17/87 - 5/28/07)



you were 20 back then, when that horrible thing happened. when you left us. but instead of dwelling on that, let me focus on the fact that you would've been 23 today.





and, as i'd often say back then, YOU ARE OLD! *evil laugh*





I miss you. We all miss you. Have a great one up there :)

literally. i think.

what do you think?

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it has been a painful 2 weeks.

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it has also been a strange weekend. i spent it with Dago (not with him only...but you know. he was there and we havent spent a weekend together since college so yeah hm fun)

Friday - JT's with Trix, Elg and Ten...then he followed for a bit then off to Morato for business. HELLO MORE BANAPPLE PLEASE! :D

Saturday - Swimming party (not a sitting-down-eating-doritos/reading-the-newspaper/being-emo-while-sitting-down-and-not-swimming party) at his house then drinking afterwards.

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It's 4:13am and I just got home a while ago.

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overall...i don't really know how to feel about (the bastard who shall not be named),about the man i spent my weekend with, about the weekend itself, about anything.

but i had fun. more or less.

thanks guys :)

and just now, as i looked through old photos and old writings, i feel like crying.

for the reason that im not happy.

for the reason that i feel disarmed, vulnerable.

for the reason that i believe that im trying.

for the reason that im being pushed to grow up too fast.

for the reason that im scared.

for the reason that i miss him still. everyday. even if it has been almost three years.

for the reason that i wish things were right.

for the reason that i feel alone.

JANUARY
- 1 year and 7 months
- I was still trying
- Thesis thesis thesis
- I was still pretty happy

FEBRUARY
- BETTIE :D
- 1 year and 8 months
- Still trying
- thesis thesis thesis
- Thought it could still work.
- Sausage fest drinking session at my house

MARCH
- got kicked out of the house
- moved in with dad for a month
- frequent visits from someone
- we ended at 1 year and 9 months, March 22, 2009

APRIL
- hello person
- things were weird
- on the bright side, i think, i moved back in with mom
- summer
- didnt graduate pakdatshit

MAY
- Drew 2 years
- the dorques :)
- moved away from LJ

JUNE
- still celebrated what shouldve been 2 years
- steadyish
- SHE comes home and tries to ruin things. hatehatehate

JULY
- dont remember haha
- steady
-thesis thesis thesis
- looked for practicum

AUGUST
- worked with Philippine Gazette
- Almost didnt graduate
- fought with MISS SIBAYAN oyea

SEPTEMBER
- 19th at Cubao
-THESIS DEFENSE
- date of graduation is SEPTEMBER 5 (my birthday)
- started work at Open.ph

OCTOBER
- quit Open.ph
- GRADUATION MARCH YAY
- started work for Visions and Expressions

November
- work work work
- not so steady

DECEMBER
- family bonding with his family
- Cavite
- dad knows, dad doesnt mind



i'm not in the mood to write a profound entry. i think the reason i'm doing this is because it's the last day of 2009 and...well. it's tradtion. i'll write a proper one when my brain isn't dead from Carlo Rossi from the night before.

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I missed Jill and Ray :)

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I return to prison on January 3. must. get. drunk.

hah. maybe you did.

so today...i found out that the guy who died that everyone has been mourning all over facebook is someone I used to know. We were never super close, but we were friends for a while. so i think he deserves to be mentioned because he's one of the people who kinda got stuck in my memory for some unknown reason...

so here it goes.

the first, and probably the most vivid memory I have of Mack Pattugalan was back in first year college. he was the friend of one of my highschool friends and we used to hang out with him and some other older guys in front of EGI.Being the awkward frosh, the first thing I did when i got to college was join an org. hello, Malate. On the day of the first ever General Assembly, I was with him and my friends in front of EGI. I was about to leave...

Macky: "ah you joined Malate? what section?" Me: "poetry"
Macky: "ah. Malate din ako eh. art. pero sobrang hindi active.hahahaha!"
Me: "ah talaga? G.A ngayon eh. pupunta ako dun."
Macky: "wag na! let's go to GP nalang!!"

*other friends join in and eventually convince me not to go to the G.a and thus, one of my first visits to GP was...born?*

other than that, I dont remember much, except hanging out at EGI or GP and random teasing.

so, Macky, thanks for being one of those people who made my first few weeks/months as an awkward frosh fun. i wish i had gotten to know you more.. i hope you're ok and happy where you are. infinite beaches await you my friend :)

i'm getting a tattoo by April. the end result should look like this, covering my whole back







it will start with the bird.


i haven't drawn anything in a long long long long long time.

it's 11pm. I'm supposed to be at work. but the cars broken and yeah. I'm not hungry and my moms getting on my case about it. she's on the phone with lola, speaker phone. and i hear lola say "baka anorexia". and that just pissed me off.

I quit my job yesterday. I'm starting new job on monday. trying to be fasyon. trying to be girly. trying to be all in-the-club-scene-wiuth-the-socialites-type. its.so.not.me. but at least the pay is better. and the work more interesting.

it's been six months since. hm. it's weird. sometimes i find myself returning to that time, i remember the things we had back then. especially when i feel sad. and i find comfort.